I have no idea what is going on upstairs …. Let me,just start by saying it is a little past 3 am and I am holed up on my couch.I had every intention of being fast asleep by this ridiculous moment(insert animalistic growl here) I should be sleeping of course after the busy evening shift I had at work, I am tired . So I come home eat something light and change out of work clothes into something a little more relaxing, this usually consists of sweatpants, or gym shorts, with a cutoff sleeve shirt , tank top, or beater, and a hoodie as it has been quite chilly as of late. No not all items are worn each night , how nuts do you think I am gym shorts over sweat pants (not even on laundry day).I do my nightly routines and to the couch I go to hopefully fall asleep. Why the couch and not the bed? , that is a very good question. Im not quite entirely sure when it started exactly , but all I can say is that the couch has been the resting place now for the better part of the last 5 months . Try hard as I may to fall asleep in my bed I cant. My brain lately has been way to active , I dont know wether its because my brain has gotten so used to running at high speed due to staffing issues at work for the last 3+ months and I’m that used to being on the go or weather im running out of storage space up there and my brain is trying to vomit everything out, all when my body stops moving . It is frustrating , I know there are people out there that suffer from insomnia , I refuse to believe that I am one of them . It isn’t a caffine issue as I have cut back tremendously on that intake . so lets clear some junk out ….
Technical difficulties ….
So the other night long story short my phone updates …… And crashes …. Loop reboot is what its called , phone comes on ….welcome screen comes on…. phone goes dark… Take battery out restart…. Phone comes on…. Welcome screen comes on…. Phone goes dark… So as my anxiety level (steady on the rise) hits an all time record at what I could only possible believe to be between the hours of 830pm(last time I looked at the clock at my brothers house before returning home) and 5am( as I hadn’t seen any head lights cross my kitchen window so I knew my dad was still home early riser for work and all) i said screw it . Sat down on my couch and listened to silence , thoughts raced yet again from there . I have no link to the outside , no link to family, no connection with friends , no social media, no videos to watch on my phone , no way to call for help in an emergency , straight up static. That’s not really the worst part. I can do without social media and vlogs I watch online for the record , I cannot do without being able to connect to my everyday people (we all have those people we connect with on an everyday /every other/ every 3 daybasis you know the type and get where I’m going ) move along shall we, I force myself to go to sleep although at that moment I have no idea what time it is , I don’t have an alarm clock other than my phone , I dont live in the city anymore and can’t make a gestimation about what time it may be due to what’s going on outside my apartment window, no apartments in the country, no neighbors I could bother at that time either as I pretty much stick to myself as my family lives across the paved road from me and I knew everyone was in bed so no luck there either . I wake up shoot up off the couch and head over to my dads house ( yet again just a short walk from my place) I see he’s home ask him the time cause I work at 3pm and need to get the phone with figured out , head to my phone company , apparently I’m not the only one its happened to , glad to know I’m not the only lucky one . so I end up getting a completely new phone , up side COMMUNICATIONS BACK UP AND RUNNING !!! Down side , if youve been following along on my adventure known as life , you may recall me having moved not too long ago from a city in North Dakota , to the back woods of Southeast Georgia. I have been here a little over one full year and in that time I have had many cherishable moments that were of course photo opportunity moments so I had many photos on my phone, not backed up as I didnt have a constant Wi-Fi connection . Translation… My first year photos all gone just about as fast as I experienced the places and things and I guess that’s that. No getting them back only starting over fresh again so I guess let the adventures begin again… But for now I think sleep as its 4:11am now , typing on your phone really does take longer then typing on a key board.
Random I know , just go with it I know I’ve learned to .